When will I..

At times like these,

I look at the past..
Only to notice the mistakes I have made,

overseeing the things I've done right.

As i look to the future..
I see the possible achievements and rights i can grasp,
but at the same time..
Only to notice, I've been overseeing the mistakes I can make.

With that said.. what is this i see now?..

11/7

Some mistakes have to be made, in order for us to learn from them.

This was one I wouldn't regret making..



zx

Food For Thought.. my 2009 review

expect errors n mistakes.. as i din reli bother 2 read d whole post again a check for anytin..
in spite of errors this post should be understanable? i guess?..



2 month holz went out in a blink of an eye :-s

aikz..

4th jan 2010 3am.

class starts in... 8 hours? lol

y am i even still awake? =.= gotta find a way 2 cure dis insomnia prob, or its gonna cost me with work n stuff..

on a scale of 1 to 10.. 6. dats d strength of my headache now >.<
had pretty gud exercise dis afternoon, my body is tired, my head hurts, bt y cnt i slp?? @.@

tsk tsk.. feels kinda weird sum how.. 2010
2009 behind me..

well now dat i think of it.. bout time i kinda reviewed 2009 b4 it gets too deep into d yr 2010, n dis topic turns cold.. lol


2009 :

Ironic mayb?..
dec 31, 11 50pm, 2008...
i had dis reli weird feeling bout 2009, it wasn't a gud feelin, it was pretty bad.
lol coulnt reli grasp the feelin well, js had a reli bad feelin of d comin 2009 at d time..

well.. at d end of it all?.. 2009 has proven 2 be a year of firsts of me.. lol mayb firsts..
n also, a year of big fluctuation.. lol? ups n dwn's kinda thing..
it was completely outta balance, n perfectly in balance at the same time.. though dis could oni be seen at the end of the year.

as i had the happiest moment of my life..
and the toughest moments of my life..
all packed in 1 damn year=.=
oh hell yea it was tiring.. kinda?.. lol

as i look back now.. i realise how much i've learned.. althought they are many decisions i regret making, i cnt help but think.. if any of thoese decisions had been undone, i might very well have learned less thn i have now..

anyway, about dat bad feeling of 2009.. in a way.. it did came true..
but only after the joys and happiness before all the negativity.
happiness that had been able 2 match the saddness..

so in a way, i guess its pretty balanced thn? heh..

u could say that.. 2009 was reli a year where i learn a lot reli.. more realistically and mentally thn anytin else.

As i am sure whatt i hav learnt will definately enlighten me to see much more. and to know that there reli is much more than that which meets the eye..


probably all i hav to say for now..

forgive any..
typing errors so on, i'm still getting used to typing without short form..
also please excuse any weird phrasings, cuz i'm kinda js pourin dis out as i go XP.


ps. for thoese who hav nt seen

sherlock holmes, staring Roberts Downing Jr, Jude Law. 24th dec 09 release
great movie, make an effort 2 c it.

Holz~

damn. zx here finally bk >.<

okok, no more emo shit. sorry about that, i'm back ^.# no worries

anyways... the holz hav been kinda boring, & very lazy for me.

small outings here and there.

don't really know what to write about zzz.. :-s

my daily routine for the holidays?

lol
3pm wake,
5pm gym,
7pm back
8-10pm dinner n stuff,
10pm-7am.. movie, online anytin la =.=
3am wake, next day swt..

and lots of spendin.. haha
shop shop shop
$$ pokai face T.T

really wanna find a good piano teacher to get formal lessons for once.. but just feel so lazy lol=.=

still waitin for parents to cut that short leash before i break it=.=
so sick of bein a house pet ****!
well.. their still my parents so.. haih~



dats bout it reli..




*note 2 self.. find piano teacher..>.<

Bus no. 11

19/6/09
normal start of d day, lol bt bit sry 2 my frenz, i was kinda down 2wardz d end of d day.. =.=
anywayz..

my parents were gettin lazy of fetchin me around d place, so i've always try 2 find other ways 2 get home after college besides askin dem..
i had actually planed 2 had a fren of mine fetch me home dat day.. (since we lived pretty close)
turns out it wasn't her drivin 2day, so no biggy~ i thought i could js call my parents instead

bt den...

zz my lazy bro.. after i had told him 2 inform my mum 2 pick me, he js 4gt about it.. said he had alrdy told her.. swt..
so whn it was time 2 go.. i msged my bro, ask whr dey were on d road,
"mum still asleep" he says.. n i go wtf?? =.=

i turned 2 my dad instead, bt he was in a meeting. couldn't take any calls.
well.. it wasn't reli a gud day 2 end wif.. so i was so flockin sick of it..
i decided 2 walk home fr inti.. hahaz

d trafic was, well.. great.. T.T gud thing i oni had 2 cross d road once..
after say.. 1 h 30 min +? mum called.. lol
my bro had told her i was walkin, gud thing she had slept (gud mood).. or else she would hav freaked xp

lol i was half way home anywayz..
mum eventually caught up (obviously, car!) . took me home >.<

haha it was an experience i guess.. walkin home frm inti XD. its actually nt dat bad..
if u ignore d dust... cars.. motorbikes...

i started walkin wif a bad mood, ended up at home wif a gud mood =.=m""
lol ain't too bad a walk i guess, mayb my recent down-ness was js due 2 lack of exercise.. hahaha


z{X}

this week has proven to be the worse i've had since i've started college..
kinda weird, cuz thrz no particular reason for d down-ness. lol..
mayb i'm js tired? zz. . tired from wut =.=

anyway... haven't driven in a looonggg time, (no car) :-s wut was d point of me gettin my license again?
oh ya... wallet display item.. decor T.T.
well.. i dun hav much 2 say..
js feel lyk putin up a new post..
hope nx week will b beta.. ^^

much beta..


ltr~
z{X}

1st post..

well.. cnt say dis is my 1st blog.. bt none of my blogs hav reli lasted so...

its been a while since i've wrote a blog in english, so dis 1 will b.
dis blog will b different fr my previous few,
how? thr will b less emo-nesss.. lol =.= (sumtin diff? hopefully?)

dun reli noe y i'm cre8in dis blog,
prbly gonna 4get bout it bt..
i'll try 2 keep its existence in mind..

enjoy ur visit..
z{X}